Chains (also help omfg)

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Greetings, folks.

I've been really inactive for a few years; just came back most days to check messages, clear out notifications and such.
I'd like to get back into updating my dA but I've got a pretty serious anxiety condition which has kept me mostly housebound and demotivated for a long time.
I was hoping that once I'd graduated university, I would feel less stressed and not have to worry about deadlines and producing artwork for academic purposes, but it has really drained my artistic drive for a long time now, and I'm only just starting to recover from that.

As a few of my close friends know, I've been planning a series of web-based stories called Chains ever since the inception of the first volume "Symphonum" back in 2009. The bulk of that story is planned out, but it still needs fleshing and better character development for the secondary and tertiary characters. I've been thinking a lot about the later volumes in the overall series, too, which has been taking up a lot of time that I should be using to create assets and write actual content for Symphonum.

This isn't a "look out, here I come!" kind of update, it's more just so that I can get my dA profile in a more "ok, I'm ready to pick this up at any point" state, without having to go through and do all the journal CSS and profile widgets and such when I want to focus on actually presenting the work I have planned.

At any rate, here's some of the stuff I've been working on for Chains. These are two unfinished models I'm working on for two of the stories within the Chains universe:

William Horsleigh; Peremaya.



Ripley; Revenant Rooster



Ok, so here's the bad bit that I feel terrible posting about at all:
Aside from the artistic/academic/anxiety based struggles I've been going through, I recently got some bad news from the local town council who not only denied my application for housing benefits because I have been unable to demonstrate that I have been paying rent at all while living in this property. The really annoying part is that the reason I haven't been able to pay rent is because they hadn't given me anything with which to pay rent, and given that I am literally agoraphobic and find it VERY difficult to leave the house regularly, I am also unable to work a steady job. If I could do some arty stuff online, that'd be great, but my inspiration and drive has been sapped by the academic side of things and I'm still in a recovery period from that. To make matters worse, the council noticed that they overpaid me some of the benefits they'd given me before I moved in here and so they're reducing my disability benefits to account for that. If anybody can support me with that side of things I'd greatly appreciate it, but I'm afraid I can't take commissions right now and I feel awful asking for charity.

Update: I am so overdrawn now that the bank are charging me £5 a day for every day I'm overdrawn, and I need to find £100 from somewhere to get out from being overdrawn and my benefits payments will not be in for another 12 days so that's another £60 just GONE unless someone helps me with this, uuuggghhhhhh.....

p.s. it took me days to get the css working properly but now I have an actual paypal button on my footer so you can easily find my donation page if you're willing to help a scared lil dryad out

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